Thoughts

Sometimes I feel like underwatered plant.

Wilting and curled up to save moisture. There's only so many cups of tea you can drink per day that will make you happy. Sometimes time is the only thing that can help. But eventually, time, too, will come after you. Is there no hope then? Yes there is. All the matter in our bodies comes from the stars. Be kind to yourself in hardship.

Does it matter - if you're dead?

Sometimes the voices of people you know keep living in your head: you didn't do this, you forgot that, you should have done more. But does it matter, if you're dead? Is it really important? Does doing it make you happy? Will it matter in a year, or ten? If it brings you happiness and well being, keep it.
When I feel alone in the universe, I think of neutrinos and it brings me comfort.

Every second hundreds of trillions of neutrinos pass through our bodies, most of them produced by the Sun; passing through the Earth, interacting with no one, harming no one. Permeating the emptiness of space as an immense invisible stream.